Once again, faced with a holiday that used to mean sparklers, picnic, friends and family. And... yet again, am picturing my Dad with his beloved Olivia - playing in the yard, eating side by side. I will see my Mom tomorrow, and Enzo couldn't be more excited to see grandma. The holiday will be different, though. Already know there is something planned for when we leave (I'm trying not to take it personally - probably one of my brothers and family I don't know), but... I will enjoy my visit with Mom - keep it brief so I don't cause any stress. Maybe I'll even buy some sparklers :-).
I am, admittedly, a little blue. Watching a mother, son and grandson stroll by - three generations - littlest one cozy in his stroller. We don't have that now. In fact, hubby's family asked me to stay away from an upcoming dinner in DC. His one sister often asks that of me. For some reason, she just doesn't like me and, off and on, she has support from the others on that - depends on how lucid she is ;-) whether they listen or not (last year, at this time, they were doing an "intervention" with her and a life coach :-). So... we'll do our own thing - pick up the cousin who needs to come to town when we are told. It's how it always goes. It is fine.
Tonight, I am on my own. Olivia babysitting. Hubby at a bbq (I had planned to make Asian lemon chicken and order a movie since we couldn't find a babysitter, but... hubby informed me that he would be going anyway. His friends... oh well - and, in his defense, one of us should go to this event for other reasons... nice guy... hard times over the past year or more... right thing to do... plus they are longtime band buddies with recent good fortune and happiness to celebrate, respectively - just me being holiday blue ;-). I have restless kids - wild from a late day at the pool and a lot of milling around while I ran errands. I should just let it go... not mention any of it.... blow it off, but... I can't. I feel RIPPED OFF. Can't help it. Just do. As usual, making the best of it all...
Plan to eat curry chicken salad on whole grain, drink my fave carrot apple juice, watch Run Fatboy Run and tackle the unfortunate tasks of dishwasher emptying, laundry and yard clean-up (oh yeah - I really am that boring). They say there will be days like these... apparently many days like these....;-).
I will end by naming 5 positive things in order to get back on track: our fish tank is clean, I have lost 4 lbs, I've found an organization solution for all my kids' scrapbook stuff, I have high school forms to fill out that will occupy me tonight (we OCD types love that), my mother in law is in NY (and, therefore, not down the street from me ;-). Harsh. Don't judge me; I'm lonely tonight.
Wishing you all companionship, rest and happy memories this weekend.
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